TAKING FLIGHT

SEEKING THE GREAT PERHAPS!

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Preview

HELLO!

Summer break's about to end for me (sadly). Classes are starting first thing next week! Few more days of celebrating glorious freedom!

Time flies by so fast! HOHO

In other news, as promised, here's a little preview of what I am doing these past few days. :)

I haven't been painting around in a long time. I used acrylic paint for this doodle. I was practicing and messing around some letterings and wordings, before I finalize the design for my friend's starbucks cup.

As for my ink/pencil drawings, here are the latest ones. (But still unfinished) :

Here's one crazy flowery pattern I've been doodling, I plan to fill the whole pages of my moleskine as usual. I used uni pen fine markers my friend gave me as a christmas gift. hihi. :) 0.1 for this one though. :)

As for the COMPLETE set of drawings. I'll post them soon. :)  (complete drawings/doodle/patterns + mini doodle paint + master starbucks cup)

I just realized though, I haven't been drawing my usual awkward funny cartoons as much lately. HAHA. I should practice more soon. :) I'll post what I'll be doing as well soon then.

have a happy summer! :)

Painting on a Blank Canvas

YES. GUESS WHAT!

I can officially say that I survived my freshman year in college! WOO.

Although it was a pretty tough year for me, I believe I still have lots to be thankful for. :)

This year for me is all about acceptance.

It was all about freedom-- freedom from my own vulnerability. It was all about change-- embracing whatever was given to me. It was all about seeing things in a new perspective-- overcoming issues of insecurities. These were all the challenges I had to face and I'm glad I can say, that I was able to surpass them.

It wasn't easy but it was all worth it.

Okay. First, I won't be a hypocrite here and say everything was pretty much perfect.

Because, oh. believe me, it wasn't. I really had a hard time dealing with everything. Freshman year was a total whirlwind. From family problems and issues to school related activities and responsibilities, I couldn't really find the right balance to manage everything well at the same time. I wanted to excel: get a whooping grade, be in the dean's list, manage to still fit in the criteria for Ateneo's Junior Term Abroad (JTA), be active in orgs and make an overall good impression in college. So, did I indeed achieve all that? Well, assessing my year, I'd say, NO. Really. I didn't get in the dean's list. But I'd still say I got whooping grades-- haha, whooping in a way because, it wasn't as high as I hoped it would be.  But, It was okay at least I'm still qualified for JTA, a very good news for me. :) My org related activities are going great? I guess. I may not be that active in my home org (hehe), but I think I'm starting to be active in my other orgs. I was blessed enough to be given the opportunity to lead and I can say I'm really enjoying it. I'm hoping second year will be better!:)

Although I'm still not quite sure if my course is indeed the right one for me, I made a choice to still stay.
Because I know I can. :) I know second year will be better. It will. :) No more comparisons. No more downs. The only competitor I have here is myself. I'll try harder.

For all that's said and done, at least I know I tried my best. My friend was right. WE did try our best, second sem was hell but heck, we survived. We can't say we COULD have tried harder, because we know we already did. What matters, in the end, is that we tried. Even if we didn't completely reap what we sowed, OHWELL. There's always next year.

So cheer's to the past! and hello future!

to making old memories and friendships last :) ---

to making new ones! :) ---

here's to a happy summer and a better soph year ahead!

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sorry guys! no art post for today though! :( But i'm working on something. :> hihi. posting some pictures soon on my next post!:)

God bless guys!

STILL

How are you guys?


I am truly sorry for the shortage of posts and doodles. I've been pretty busy and occupied with school stuff. Hell weeks never seemed to end. hoho. It is a shame I wasn't able to share my january post-- dedicated solely for my random new year resolutions or even my post-valentine rantings. hoho. (Maybe I'll catch up on those two posts next time:)! )

Nevertheless, I am back-- for now!

I realized I missed writing and blogging so much-- not that I'm much of a pro writer or whatever.. but I miss the whole process of it. Of it being my only form of solitude.

So, the other day, I was able to watch Ramona and Beezus at HBO. After which, I ended up crying once again. I really didn't know why, but I just did. Maybe, because it is all about family mushy stuff again and as you all know, if you read my past depressing posts I still get all senti and sad when it comes to this subject. Anyway, I found myself thinking again. (HUHU sorry, this blogpost seemed to be all sad again.) Then I realized....

haha!

I really have a hard time opening up to most people. I don't know if it is because of my trust issues or if it's because of pride. I just don't really want to feel small when they hear what I am going through. I really don't like to be pitied. I don't need that right now.

However, if there's is one thing I realized lately, I really can't fight this alone. REALLY.  I admit--at one point in my life, the word "death" seemed like a fair option to me. I didn't really think of the effects or the implications of the whole physical pain of its process or method. But I focused more on the sole purpose of it, for it to end all the distress, depression and emotional pain im feeling. Shameful, I know. Being a Christian, I never thought that this whole thought would come across my mind. Do I still think about it now? I would say... maybe. Yes. Yes and Yes. Sometimes, when the pain of life unceasingly creeps through, I still do. But of course, I try not to. I end up crying my eyes out instead. Anyway, that's not the point. I realized that if I keep isolating myself in this state, I would never move on. If I keep all this feelings boiled up inside of me, I would end up breaking down all over again. I realized I really really really really can't face it alone. I still need people-- people who would truly understand what Im going through, people who would truly relate to me, people would in short, completely care. Yes, I used to think isolating myself and not telling anyone a single thing of what I am going through is a better way of coping. And well, I was wrong.

So to those people who have stuck with me all throughout, I give you all the massive bear hugs and the never ending thank you's.

But most importantly, a much bigger thank You to the One who never left my side- God. hoho. :) This battle is not mine anymore. It's all His.





"... Be still and know I am God." Psalm 46:10

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ANYHOO.

in other news! Here are my latest update on my doodles:

I find her pretty. Pencil on Moleskine! January, 2012

Zombie-look? HOHO. January 2012, edited.
drew on moleskine, used uni pin fine line pens. 

PUMPKINS!

The dreamers and the realists. 

There are dreamers and there are realists in this world. You'd think the dreamers would find the dreamers and the realists would find the realists. But more often than not, the opposite is true. You see, the dreamers need the realists to keep them from soaring too close to the sun. And the realists... well without the dreamers, they might not ever get off the ground. - Cameron Tucker, Modern Family. :)

Happy Thanksgiving. 

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Learning to draw different characters from Christopher Hart's Humongous book of Cartooning. 

old drawing I did for the Student Council giveaways.

doodles from moleskinne. 

Coloring outside the lines.

Simple things come from the simplest beginnings. It all starts with a single step. 




I love kids. I love their whole idea and notion of joy, simplicity and innocence. I love how they never let any single being or circumstance complicate who and what they want to be. :) I guess that's why I never get tired of them, because somehow through them I get reminded of the true meaning and essence of life itself-- to enjoy every bit and moment of it, to seize the day and take time to actually LIVE!               


So last Saturday (on November 19) was the day we've all been waiting for. It was the BLUE CHRISTMAS 2011 event! :) It's a yearly student organized charity event held at my college, Ateneo. It's basically an event dedicated for unfortunate kids, making them the ultimate stars of the day-- treating them special, playing with them, making them happy and etc. :)                                          


So there, I volunteered as a facilitator for the kids. :) 

Facilitators, Class Hosts, and the kids in our group!:)  

I woke up at 4am since the call time for the facilitators was around 5:30am till 6am. It was so early I could barely get up. I got to school at 6am (HA! Just in time hohoho) and registered. I met my fellow faci, Shelly, and off we go preparing. We sort of panicked at first because our other faci member was running late and we were worried that we won't be able to handle the 24 kids assigned to us (There are usually about 4-5 facilitators assigned per group of children).  Anyway, we decided that I'll be the jeep representative ( the one to fetch the kids at their area) while she prepares the stuff needed for our next venue. I was so confused, I didn't know where to go. I was to ride the jeepney to the area (which I absolutely have no idea where). I was so scared of getting lost that I ended up being so panicky and jittery while waiting for our 48 A Jeepney. But at the last minute! My other fellow faci (Elaine) who ran late, finally came and went with me! 

Elaine, my other fellow faci (Photo taken inside the jeep!!) 

THE SCHOOL! where we fetched the kiddies from :)

We went to Project 3 Elementary School and fetched the kiddies. After the roll call of names, instead of the supposed 24 kids we will be handling, it lessened to 23. We were so blessed that the 23 kids we handled are all active, hyper and just absolutely bright and incredibly happy. :)

The kiddies! (girls) (L-R, cherry, biancs, bangbang, ruby, daph, char, janna, suzy,  pocahontas (I like calling her that, I told her she looks like pocahontas don't you think? kiddie version), rain and charm. 

(L-R) Francis, Aj, christian, raphael aka dugong (he likes to be called that),  Jorell 

He's such a cutie don't you think? Jorell is Top 1 of his class!  :) Bright, bright kid indeed. He amused me by showing me his books. For a 10 year old kid, he reads philosophical books! (The book was entitled, What does it mean to be happy?) He also brought with him his Spanish book. He told me he wanted to learn. :) [He was able to teach me a few words!]

Sweet sweet, Paolo!:) He chose to spend his birthday with us!:) Happy Birthday kiddo! 

Raphael, a.k.a., Dugong. :)) [One of our most hyper kiddo that day!]

It's Christian! :)

                               

                                                              Francis said he wanted this to be his new DP in Facebook. 

At the jeep, on our way to Ateneo!:)

At the classroom, waiting for the activities prepared by the class hosts. :)

Ruby, the half mexican kid. :) [cool right?] [She said she wants to grow up to be an actress. :)] + Rain [the tough girl who likes pellet guns. waddap! :))]

:)

Meet my fellow faci's!:) shelly + elaine! :)

Shelly + elaine +  our other faci member! mikee

yes. because we are cool asians. harhar.

they really love the camera. hahahhaa.

Kids having fun.

THE BOYS.

The very tired BUT happy faci's!:)

Nix and I with miss juniPERRR.

Our last pictures with the kiddies before sending them off!:(

Funny how God really works in mysterious ways. That same week, the sunday message was all about being radical. It's all about going outside the norm, building on your principles, starting something right, having an advocacy, evoking a simple change. And with that said, I'm glad that I was able to end my week happy by participating in this wonderful life changing event. I was bone tired, but heart happy. Looking forward to do this again. :)