I've recently been reading this wonderful book by Gretchen Rubin, "The Happiness Project". I never really saw myself reading a self-help kind of book. But "The Happiness Project" of Gretchen Rubin, intrigued me. Anyway, I think it's very timely that I'm reading this before the second semester of college starts (oh gah, 3 days more and counting-- I'm so not ready to go back to school yet.)
Well, without further adieu...
:) I'm not even half of the book and yet I'm already hooked. Am I planning to start my own "happiness project"? Maybe. But for now, in line with the book's context and content. I'm inspired to do my own twelve commandments just like the writer did, after she had an epiphany moment at a city bus about finding the secret of happiness. I had my own epiphany the other night, quickly running off to my study table, getting my pad of paper and immediately jotting my random thoughts down. And here's what I've come up with: (Excuse the randomness, it was 2am and I'm not quite sure if I'm still making sense)
1) Go for the vision. Go for the goal.
3) Always have a good perspective. (Optimism) ---> (I suck at actually being optimistic, I advice a lot of people to be and most of the times it works on them, but I can never apply my words to myself.)
4.) Love until you have nothing to give.
5) Listen. Actually listen.
6) Don't count.
7) Do your best, leave God the rest.
8) You reap what you sow. (I still like to think that, even if it doesn't hold precisely true for most of the grades I got in last semester, not that I failed most of them. But expected more)
9) Never expect, never assume. (Now this, holds true for a lot of things.)
10.) Be contended.
11) Enjoy now.
12) Be more open.
It's not arranged by any sort of order if you ask. I realized that reading through this book not only made me go for the goal of finding true happiness, but also it made me think about becoming even more as a better person than I am today. I want to improve further my growth and maturity, because somehow I think to be able to actually and truly make a difference in the lives of others, I should mirror the kind of life they should be living. I should be a person worthy to be emulated. But of course, sometimes being the goody goody is just so darn hard. Like let's say before I have my outburst, I have to think twice.
Anyway, I'm never really good at keeping resolutions. But I hope by setting the scope of my so called version of my twelve commandments will keep me sane and good or be better at handling things. I hope this next semester will be better than the last time. I want to try even harder, and do the very best of my efforts. I'm not going to lie and say I won't procrastinate because somehow in the whole process I know I'll end up still doing it. But I'll try hard to deviate from it nevertheless. Like my 1st commandment says, I'm going for the goal. I know it'll be hard and I can never assume (as said from my ninth commandment), but I still hope I could be one of the DL's. It's still my dream, not for anyone but for myself. (OKAY OKAY fine, maybe for my grandfather (angkong) too. I want him to be happy. He really brightens up when he hears I get good grades, and the fact that he's sick (His cancer cells depleted, yes but he still holds it in his system), I want to put a good use of my time and make him proud. :) Besides that, I think getting a higher grade will increase the chances of me picking a really good school for my Junior year, in the JTA program, my school holds. I know this is quite farfetched, but it's still worth a try. I really have big dreams you know? Thinking of the future gives me the hibbie jibbies. Future's future, it holds another story for itself. SO for now, I'm trying NOT to over think and fast forward things. Though..I feel like I'm contradicting myself at some point for my saying that I'm going for my vision. Anyway, my point is that, I have this goal in mind. But for now, in the process of going through that goal and hopefully completing it, I'm going to enjoy now (eleventh commandment) and hope it's worthwhile.
Okay. This is for now. 3:10am. (Sigh, it seems like my brain always works better at this time. I think I'm sleep deprived. Another reason why I think I should add "sleep early" to my commandments or lists of things to do. ... I'll save that for my next post, but till then. This will be as far as it goes.)
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(From now on, I'll try to include some of my random sketches per post. :). This might just be another way of pushing myself to practice drawing everyday, not that I protest against that-- I love drawing. My passion for it will never ever die. (haha how cheesy). But, making this commitment means that, I have to spend each day with accomplishments, and one of which is to have fun and make art.
(a sketch I did I think last year-- at school. bored. HOHO)
(I can say one of my proudest so far -- I think I drew Randall from the Monster's Inc. pretty well.. not that I'm gloating. hahaa)
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