image from thingsweforget.blogspot.com:)I think it's a tough tough thing to find love. To love and Be loved.
Love doesn't necesarrily only pertains to the usual perception that it's just all about those loveydovey boyfriend stuff. Love's extent is more than that. So scrap those thoughts.
And with all the drama experiencing by my family now, it involves that issue. How do we really show our love? I mean like me, I'm not really that type of being mushy and all. I show my love by just doing all means to make the person I love the most happy. I know I'm doing my part if i'm giving my best, my heart, my everything to that person. I don't think that 3 words 8 letters is the only way to affirm that feeling.
So anyway, it just saddens me. Failed family relationships. I don't understand. Even if I'm not that type of mushy person (like i said), I always find away STILL to show them that I love them so at least even if I don't say out loud those 3 words 8 letters, the person KNOWS.. AT the very LEAST.
How can you not show love? It's just impossible. Humankind is destined to love and be loved. God gave all of us that wonderful gift.. that capacity to be able to CARE. It is something already innate in all of us. What's so hard in showing just THAT?
So in the issue of my cousin and her mother, how the whole cycle of the give and take of love is hazy...
I really hope they resolve their issues. Both sides should give way to each other. It'll take time to heal and to ease the pain... I know, but there should at least be effort to mend the broken relationship and glue the shattered pieces of the heart.
IF only I could tell my auntie this:
(name insert here), I hope talaga na bigyan mo din ng chance ang sarili mo. There's nothing wrong in trying in reaching out. And iyong gusto mo mangyari na maayos na lahat AGAD sobrang impossible iyon. Paano magiging OKAY ang lahat if you don't do your part as the mom?:( If you don't first reach out to your son? If you don't respond? Paano matatapos ang problema kung palaging okay lang okay na sige tingnan nalang natin kung anong mayayari? kung if you continue the bahala na attitude? FACE IT nalang dapat. Wala naman talaga pang hero na magsasave sa relationship niyo kung di rin ikaw, actually sa buong family ninyo..Nothing will happen unless you MAKE something happen. Hindi ko maiintindihan, the same way na pinagsabihan mo si dad? about the whole changing process, the same way na sinabi mo sa amin na it takes time.. bakit hindi mo rin iyon magawa kay (cousin's name insert here). He needs some space, some time to asses kung ano nafefeel niya. For 18 years, He didn't really grow up with you. And now na bigla your trying to mend everything yes its correct at least your trying pero ang weird kasi parang minamadali mo eh:( tapos parang ang tigas mo pa din kung minsan. Kung di mo din mapapafeel sa kanya na love mo siya that you care for him, how will he know? You know naman na hurt na siya and nagtatampo na siya. He just need that love that solace that HOME to always go back to. And dahil hindi nga nya nafeel sayo, nahanap niya kay mom ko. Sa mommy ko, and now na depress nga siya and all, dinideprive niyo naman. Dapat give and take lang:) God has a reason why siguro nagaminan na lahat. Its in your hands din naman the decision kung what you want to do with the whole issue thing. It's hard to accept I know, your hurt, pero face the truth. I hope kahit di ka rin mushy like me, kaya mo naman siya i-hug eh, or at least makamusta so kahit papano, he FEELS your existence as HIS mom.
:) diba? It's impossible na you won't know how to LOVE, and how to SHOW IT. maybe you just don't have the courage to do it? Or maybe I don't know you have the humility that you are wrong too?:( Ang sakit tanggapin lahat pero dapat hindi lang dapat iyak at katigasan ang response eh. I know you KNOW what's right to DO. Pero why di mo nalang magawa?:( You said you love him, then do your part and make him feel na HE IS LOVED. He is YOUR son anyway db? God teaches us to love like Christ love us. Kahit gaano pa kahirap. Look nalang at 1 corinthians 13. :) I hope (auntie's name here) God will guide you through pa din. And hope na maaccept mo lahat and change din for the better. Di mo rin pwede lagay sarili mo, lahat ng isang tao sa isang box lang. Hindi kayo makakagrow. :(
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UGGH. How sad, I don't know how to comfort my cousin anymore. He is in one tough stage of depression. He once said He wants a home but he can't find any. :( He's lost.
So it just boils down to this,
"stay in good terms with each other, held together by love." HEBREWS 13:1
